For a long time I didn't know what to think or feel about you, maybe I still don't. What I do know is this: I love you with all my heart, you said things that you couldn't live up to, and then you broke my heart when you realized this. I guess it's not your fault, but I meant every word I ever said to you and I was always careful about saying things before I thought them through. I don't know if you did the same. I realize now that even though you have everything you need to be amazing both on your own and with somebody else, you don't have a bit of conviction to stick to what your heart says regardless of the subject. That's not a healthy place, I hope you find a way to believe in yourself. I've been afraid to move on in a sense because I do care about you and there wasn't anything broken with us so I figured why spend all that time and effort creating something new when something good was already there? I knew that I would take you back in a heartbeat, no hesitation, and even now I don't know what I would say if it actually came up. But I'm realizing that moving on isn't the same thing as moving to someone new, and I want to move on. I don't need any person in my life to make me complete but I don't want to be thinking about you all the time. I want to be free. I'm glad you're going off to basic because then I won't even need to give things a second thought before I post them or say them, I'll be free to express myself the way I want to. The experience will also be good for you and I want the world for you in this, find what you're looking for. I won't be here when you come back, and maybe you won't ever come back, but you'll find yourself and that's what matters. For right now, I do love you but I'm taking myself back. I'm taking my freedom from that love and those feelings I had for you, I'm going my own way without you.